This will be one of my toughest write up that i have ever do before but i FEEL that i must do it!!! As being mention earlier on “Lowest point ever in my life”
“there are no right and wrong, all these are based of individual perception and the mind at that point of time believes you are right and standing firm to the choice you had made.” Whereby how can anyone out there be true rights and wrongs in this world when we are all so deeply entrenched in subjective attachments and various matters arising from the mind?
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“I don’t blame my friend as i need to put myself into another people’s shoes”
I had been carefully reading my write up over and over in every posting as not to spoil my friend’s reputation which i have been treasure so greatly. And yet i had failed to bring myself in other people’s shoes when such comments being made in 莫结交爱人，莫结不爱人。不见爱人苦，见憎人亦苦
“Why is that so? It’s not because of the hurtful words which my friend have said but rather my friend had kept very secretive about the dates..in my mind IF IF that is possible i would really like to join in the fun too 
How can my friend be so sure that i will tag along? I have to consider about what lies in front of me ahead. I can’t just simply go missing in action”
First of all, I must stress that I’m not blaming or accusing anyone…
Just a thought on how i “FEEL” and don’t i have my area of concern for myself and the friend that i have been greatly treasure upon. Or else why would i would like to find out something which many people out there don’t “FEEL” that’s its important? I really do appreciate and giving all the credit for what my friend had done for the best interest of my heart. But does anyone out there really knows how would a person’s “FEEL” and using the heart to think when I know there’s something going on and without knowing anything at all and all it takes in the end by just waiting for updates when everything is over. Won’t anyone “FEEL” helpless? Won’t anyone “FEEL” scared with little information being provided or known on my side? Doesn’t this be the same as “Not knowing anything at all and knowing that there is something but no one tells you anything about it are two different things”
Each individual have their own opinion and thus may be leaving an impression of “IT’S MY RIGHT TO KNOW”. I must explain very carefully that this is not the case or else why can I be such a fool of myself and keep on looking around for any minor updates in the 1st place when my friend didn’t let me know about. Almost as if I’m waiting for a rabbit and knock onto the tree? Won’t I “FEEL” its almost as if i’ve been treated as a stranger? Why don’t we turn things in another way around? How would a “MOTHER” really react when the precious “CHILD” is keeping something unknown or accidentally leak some information? Won’t anyone be worried? Don’t tell me all these worries is proven unnecessary when someone that I really care and treasure so greatly? It’s really hurts…It’s enough right? I felt helpless and there’s noting much i can provide when I wasn’t aware of anything going on?
Just like a coin which have both sides and different way of picturing things..If i don’t explain myself, MY FRIEND which have my best interest of my heart which all of my previous statement will be slanderous to people out there viewing it and think negative of my friend 1st without knowing anything at all and without knowing what’s happening. This is really my fault for not reading this in the reader’s position and i had never spare a thought in bringing myself to other people’s shoes when i have been keeping remind others the same as how would a person really feel when you have ever place yourself in other people’s shoes? This is just one side of my story and i had never did spare a thought for others. As if my behaviour smack of selfishness and prde, not the compassionate soul that i have been painting myself as!!! I can always do the easy way out by just amending my blog’s contents but this WILL NOT SOLVE anything at all which all these words have already being express it. Just like the water is being pour out of the bucket and how are we going to recollect the water back into the bucket? This will also serve me as a reminder of how i can be inconsiderate and when such statement being incorrectly misplaced and slanderous on how others might thought of my friend while without knowing anything at all and doen’t know what’s happening.
Noting that has happened have been pointless…Just like everything in this world has its cause and effect. According to the Buddha Dharma : “To know the seeds of the past, just look at what one receives in this life. To know the effects in the future, just look at what one does in this life.” In our daily lives, there are actually numerous opportunities for the use of intuition towards acquisition of knowledge. For example, A flower is beautiful simply by looking at it. It would be difficult and indeed unnecessary to try to analyse via using logical thinking on why the flower is beautiful? If i don’t treasure my friend so deeply, why would i be going through all these? Don’t I have any unnecessary worries and concern and scare? After all I’m still a HUMAN with rationality, intelligence, desire and feelings for self-respect…自尊, 理性, 智能, 欲望和感受.
As the saying goes, “Wisdom comes from experience”. There are many things to be learned as well as incidents to be encountered in a lifetime. Whether in smooth sailing or difficult times, in periods of satisfaction or dejection. The attitude one holds and the choices one makes when faced with problems will determine the success or failures of one’s life. From here i did realize a few things,
How many people out there which includes me to use our “HEART” and “FEELINGS” to view with certain matters raising from the mind?
It’s not easy for anybody to expect others to be always understanding and accommodating. Because every ordinary being has pride and ego which also includes me as well. In return, how will a person handle all these on treating others with tolerance, humility and a peaceful mind.
How to achieve something like…As the saying goes, ” Silence is gold”. When involved in an argument, offer victory to others. The reason for us to have only one mouth but two ears is because we should listen more and talk less. When each individual holds firmly to their own beliefs and such matters doesn’t compromise with one another?
Just like this clip from Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn! and this part is almost as what I “FEEL” all these while…
This part was about the boycott of guys who did secretly hide something but doesn’t want the girls to know anything of what’s happening as they really do care for them. In some point of time the girls did manage to find out the secrets on their own way. In the end, the girls somehow trusted to believe in the guys so it’s fine if they don’t tell them anymore. But Tsuna feels while he have been trying to think about the feelings for the 1st time while searching for kyouko chan and began to understand his own selfishness of “Not knowing anything at all and knowing there is something but no one tells you anything about it are two different things.” and so on…
When i had made this statement in my post on 莫结交爱人，莫结不爱人。不见爱人苦，见憎人亦苦 “I don’t blame my friend as i need to put myself into another people’s shoes” –> I have to explain it here that My friend which had my best interest in my heart which many unknown possibilities may occur.
I did emphasis on this matter on the post on All things are created by the mind 一切唯心造 –> “Especially in the later part when you know the other person was having kind intentions in the 1st place, can you really bear to hate the person? Or have the person did spare a thought and feelings in the another people shoes?” This was the statement to refer back to myself and i had already failed to do so in the 1st place…
Just to share In the Zen classic texts. The Ancestral Hall Collection the Platform Classic
The monk Yin Zong expounded on the buddhist sutras. One day during his lecture a storm came up. Seeing a banner waving in the wind, he asked his audience “Is the wind moving or is the flag moving?”
Someone said “The wind is moving”
Someone else said “The flag is moving”
The two people held fast to their viewpoints and asked Yin Zong to say who was right but Yin Zong had no way to decide, so he asked Huineng who was standing nearby to resolve the issue.
Huineng said “Neither the wind nor the flag is moving.”
Yin Zong said “Then what is it that moving?”
Huineng said “You mind is moving”
“Those who would realize the practice of nonaction must arrive at the non-perception of the errors of people. This is non-moving nature. Deluded people simply stop the movement of their bodies but as soon as they open their mouths they are talking about people’s rights and wrongs and contradicting the way”
Further more each of us have different ideas, mindsets and understanding with regard to the same set of matters. It is not hard to see that something similar occurs with everything else in the world. People think of the same events differently due to our diversity in thought, learning, knowledge, time, background, allegiance and perspective.
I hope all these words can bring full justice to MY FRIEND which i have treasure so greatly all along without fail…and the slanderous words that i had said it is never true when such statement being stated and how would others view of this when not knowing anything at all and without knowing what’s happening. Will things be back to the way it was before? Haiz who knows…NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS…I WON’T ABANDON A FRIEND THAT I HAVE BEEN TREASURE SO DEEPLY.
